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so i had a panic attack earlier... my mom came in and told me that ive been "happier" since weve been out of school, and she doesn't want me to go into that dark place i was in before again. ig she has no idea what fake emotions are. she said that im not going back to school next year... shes gonna put me on online classes and i dont want that, i want to go back to school i want to see the only people i love, i want to be with the people that i can be me with... i want to go bavk and she (limit)
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3 years agowont let me.... none of us knew that when we left for spring break, we werent going bavk until next year. but i especially didn't know that when we left, id be seeing my only real family for the last time....
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3 years agoi just want to go back..
🍼๑𝒍𝒐𝒄𝒂𝒍.𝒸𝓇𝓎𝒃𝒘𝒃𝒚ઉ
3 years agoAwwww you should tell her and tell her why tell her that you enjoy it and if she puts you in te online class that you might enter that “dark place” again
🍼๑𝒍𝒐𝒄𝒂𝒍.𝒸𝓇𝓎𝒃𝒘𝒃𝒚ઉ
3 years agoIt’d be better for you to go to a place that you feel comfortable in and enjoy being there
🍼๑𝒍𝒐𝒄𝒂𝒍.𝒸𝓇𝓎𝒃𝒘𝒃𝒚ઉ
3 years agoBut same idk school makes me feel so much better idk I just love it
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3 years ago@🖤𝔱𝔴𝔢𝔫𝔱𝔶 𝔭𝔞𝔫 𝔭𝔦𝔩𝔬𝔱𝔰💛 i was crying so hard but she just kept saying she doesn't care what i want, shes not going to let me go back because sje wants whats best for me she doesn't listen to me at all... she doesn't understand
🍼๑𝒍𝒐𝒄𝒂𝒍.𝒸𝓇𝓎𝒃𝒘𝒃𝒚ઉ
3 years agoOmg I’m soo sorry to hear that going to school is best for you if she won’t listen then let her know that by not listening is already bad I just really hope everything gets better and is good at the end of everything 🖤
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3 years agomaybe talk to her again nd try to be as honest as you can about how you really feel,, it sounds like she really cares about you,,,
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3 years ago@v,,,, i cant be honest with her.. shes always mad at me. if i dont talk to her about how i feel, she gets mad. if i do talk to her about how I feel, sje gets mad because i have everything i need, most things i want, im a very privileged girl, so i have no reason to be upset over anything. but i am and she only makes it worse. plus, im really stubborn and im not going to talk to someone i dont feel comfortable talking to, and shes the last person id ever feel comfortable with. she may care ~
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3 years agobut sje doesn't listen, shes always too stuck in her own head to see that i may actually know whats best for me, and its not her doing what she does
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3 years ago@🖤𝔱𝔴𝔢𝔫𝔱𝔶 𝔭𝔞𝔫 𝔭𝔦𝔩𝔬𝔱𝔰💛 its fine... i hope so too. i just.... it hurts so bad because my blood family has never been my actual family, its my friends. and now i wont be able to see them
🍼๑𝒍𝒐𝒄𝒂𝒍.𝒸𝓇𝓎𝒃𝒘𝒃𝒚ઉ
3 years agoOmg were like supper a like I was able to relate to everything you said and it gets on my nerves that my family can’t be there for me like it’s sooo hard for my mom to listen it’s like out “family” doesn’t want us to be with those who we actually consider family
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3 years ago@🖤𝔱𝔴𝔢𝔫𝔱𝔶 𝔭𝔞𝔫 𝔭𝔦𝔩𝔬𝔱𝔰💛 yeah.. and my mom gets mad because sje got me a counselor (which i continuously lied to until the sessions were over), when she found out that i s*lf h*rm sje told the whole family, and says i have a whole family i could talk to, but she doesn't get that if i don't feel comfortable i wont talk and she doesn't get it. she always does stuff that hurts me so bad but its "whats best" and shes so stuck in her own head that she can even think of the possibility that shes only~
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3 years agohurting me more, and I actually do know whats best
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3 years agoi dont only c*t because of my mom, but sjes one of the main reasons. im not allowed to have any social media either, she doesn't know about recolor though. she scares me, so i wont even ask for social media. idc about that though, the only thing id want is sc and only for the filters lol. but i just wish shed listen to me. when she found out i c*t, she was going out of town for work and my dad was working nights, and she didn't trust me to be alone even though i was fine at the time, so she~
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3 years agoshipped me away to my cousins house and i missed half a week of school, and i almost missed a really important band competition, plus my boyfriend wasn't really okay and i needed to be there for him but i couldn't because of her
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3 years ago@🖤𝔱𝔴𝔢𝔫𝔱𝔶 𝔭𝔞𝔫 𝔭𝔦𝔩𝔬𝔱𝔰💛
🍼๑𝒍𝒐𝒄𝒂𝒍.𝒸𝓇𝓎𝒃𝒘𝒃𝒚ઉ
3 years agoOmg that sucks but same the flitters lol only she knows and I think my step dad I don’t think my dad knows and I hate how my mom doesn’t let me do anything anymore bc of my c*ts and she knows I’m hurting but hasn’t done much to help well she can’t bc of quarantine but she only know that I c*t myself on my arm but I have a lot more on my legs too and she’s get so mad if she finds out and I’m so scared bc it’s the summer and everyone gets mad at me saying why do you wear long sleeves and ...
🍼๑𝒍𝒐𝒄𝒂𝒍.𝒸𝓇𝓎𝒃𝒘𝒃𝒚ઉ
3 years agoPants but everything would think differently if they saw everything
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