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3 years ago

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3 years ago
I promise I’ll do imports again, I’ve just been super busy. Add that to stress, not a very good mental state, and an unstable past and we have our very own blonde mess! Woohoo. Anyways, I’m doing a Harry Potter import at the moment, but it might be a while before I can post it. Just wanted to post something. QOTP: Easiest class? AOTP: English

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3 years ago
My easiest class is Math. Want to talk about how your feeling?

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3 years ago
@~{Β°β€’ααŽ¬α•α•αŽ¨αŽ¬αŽ α’αŽ―α―α•β€’Β°}~ that’s kind of you, I’m just not sure how. I’ve never really opened up to anyone because I hate feeling vulnerable, so I have no clue how to talk through how I’m feeling tbh.

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3 years ago
@πŸ–€Koi Fish 🐟 I hate feeling vulnerable as well. Sometimes, it's good to open up to a random stranger and knowing fully you might never see them again or never meet them in real life. Start by explaining how you feel without even looking at how much you've typed or what you said. I write my feelings like I'm writing a book or something.

DecapitatedπŸ³οΈβ€πŸŒˆCorpse

3 years ago
my easiest class is almost definitely computer science, it's both figuratively and literally chill in there.

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3 years ago
@~{Β°β€’ααŽ¬α•α•αŽ¨αŽ¬αŽ α’αŽ―α―α•β€’Β°}~ ok, I’ll try. My parents make me feel like a disappointment for having b’s. I feel worthless and ready to just jump off the face of the planet. I feel like my friends aren’t my friends. Every time I breathe, I berate myself for being a waste of a human. Every day I spiral deeper and deeper down the rabbit hole of self loathing and hatred. I feel like I have no one to talk to, and it’s slowly hurting me. I just need help.

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3 years ago
@🍝Macaroni Queen🍝 lucky, that sounds really interesting.

DecapitatedπŸ³οΈβ€πŸŒˆCorpse

3 years ago
@πŸ–€Koi Fish 🐟 it's just vibing with other students using computers and learning about how to use the internet

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3 years ago
@🍝Macaroni Queen🍝 that does sound really chill. I wish my classes were that laid back tbh

DecapitatedπŸ³οΈβ€πŸŒˆCorpse

3 years ago
@πŸ–€Koi Fish 🐟 I think it depends on the teacher, I think I might be moving class so I might have less laid back lessons

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3 years ago
I don't know what to say about the B's. You really are doing your best! It's the same with my mom, but she just wants me to have a better life than her. You most definitely aren't worthless. Have you actually thought of suicide? We are really alike. It isn't going to be you wake up and suddenly love yourself because it will take time. But you have to put in effort. Enjoy doing things you love a little bit more. In my life, I have nobody to talk to either because nobody knows my sexuality.

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3 years ago
My family is Christian and so am I, but I like boys and girls. They are kinda homophobic as well. Not having anyone to talk to is hurting me too. Try contacting help from a suicide help line, even if you don't feel like dying.

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3 years ago
@~{Β°β€’ααŽ¬α•α•αŽ¨αŽ¬αŽ α’αŽ―α―α•β€’Β°}~ wow, that did help. Last night was rough, it took all my self control not to go to the kitchen and find a knife. I wish there was something in life I enjoyed doing, but everything has kind of just become dull and meaningless. My parents are Christians as well, and I know they would do everything in their power to try and mold me to be their perfect Christian girl if I came out to them. And if I told them about what happened in the past, I’ll probably be disowned. None-

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3 years ago
Of my friends take me seriously, and they brush me aside a lot. Every day I feel like I’m weighted down by my past memories and mistakes, but I can’t let them go. I just need somewhere where I feel safe to actually open up, instead of bottling everything up and putting on a mask

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3 years ago
@🍝Macaroni Queen🍝 I hope you stay with the laid back lesson, it sounds wonderful

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3 years ago
@πŸ–€Koi Fish 🐟 I put on a mask around others. I take off the mask sometimes and I write about what is making me sad. Then, I rip it up because it gives me a sense of control of what is going wrong. Try out different things to keep you happy, like listen to music or recolor. You can get over this. Your depression doesn't define you. I'm glad you didn't grab the knife.

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3 years ago
@~{Β°β€’ααŽ¬α•α•αŽ¨αŽ¬αŽ α’αŽ―α―α•β€’Β°}~ I am too. Today was a little easier, and the ripping up the paper sounds like a good idea. I’ll try that later. Thanks for helping out, this has kept me sane.

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3 years ago
@πŸ–€Koi Fish 🐟 Your welcome! :D

carmilladreams

3 years ago
love the ace colors!

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3 years ago
@Bianca Di Angelo yay thanks! Are you Ace as well?