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@☀️WillSolace☀️ thank you for not pushing
I honestly kinda want to tell you because this feels like lying but I don't want to hurt you
also why can't you change it
☀️Will_Solace☀️
4 years ago@🌈NicoDiAngelo🌈 you’re not going to hurt me. you can trust me, remember?
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4 years ago@🌈NicoDiAngelo🌈 also, because i’m not out to family and they’d be like “huh????”
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4 years ago@☀️WillSolace☀️ fine.
there are 6 small cuts on my inner calf from 11:23 last night when my depression spiraled worse than it has since December 2018
you asked
that makes sense. Mine could say Ari if I changed it but not anything else
☀️Will_Solace☀️
4 years ago@🌈NicoDiAngelo🌈 oh... baby.. i’m so sorry i couldn’t be there for you
☀️Will_Solace☀️
4 years ago@🌈NicoDiAngelo🌈 why were you so upset? was it anything i did or didn’t do?
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4 years ago@🌈NicoDiAngelo🌈 what can i do to help?
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4 years ago@☀️WillSolace☀️ No I dont think it was you
I started panicking about school then panicked about my college ring I ordered that has "IAR" engraved in it for Isaac Ariana Romero (my mom thought the I was for my deadname)
and then I was like SO I CANT BE NICO THEN
so then I panicked more
and then I started some self hate and yeah
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4 years ago@☀️WillSolace☀️ as of right now I have no name
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4 years ago@🌈NicoDiAngelo🌈 you can still be Nico if you want. a lot of things i like have my dead name on it
☀️Will_Solace☀️
4 years ago@🌈NicoDiAngelo🌈 no name? then what am i suppose to call ya?
☀️Will_Solace☀️
4 years ago@🌈NicoDiAngelo🌈 if you want help deciding on a name, i’m here. i could help you out.
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4 years ago@☀️WillSolace☀️ I dont wanna be Nico
I also dont wanna be Isaac
In my dream someone (maybe you IDK) kept using the deadname and I was just screaming a name at them in response but the problem was I couldn't hear what the name was
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4 years ago@☀️WillSolace☀️ I dont know
you can try but I dont know if I even want help
Im fucking tired of talking about my problems. I feel like every day There's some new shit going wrong with me and youre the one fixing it
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4 years ago@☀️WillSolace☀️ I dont know what name you should use
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4 years ago@🌈NicoDiAngelo🌈 i’m here to give you love and support. i like helping you
☀️Will_Solace☀️
4 years ago@🌈NicoDiAngelo🌈 so if you need to talk about your problems for it to get better, so be it
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4 years ago@☀️WillSolace☀️ Well i don't like it
can we just not do this right now
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4 years ago@☀️WillSolace☀️ I dont wanna talk about them. I don't wanna HAVE them. I wanna be fucking cis and I wanna be nuerotypical and I wanna be in high school
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4 years ago@🌈NicoDiAngelo🌈 i know, love. i know. i wish i were cis and weren’t fucked up in the head.
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